Not Wanting To Lose You

My heart beats slower for every second your poison stays in my veins,
I’ve gotten down on my knees asking you to forgive me.
Please don’t kill me… not now… take out this poison that you have ejected into me.
This poison runs so fast through me… its painful… its hurtful… it stains…

There is no cure for what has already been done,
I understand that I have made you suffer… that I deserve the worst I can get.
You’re smiling, enjoying my pain… waiting for my death I bet,
Waiting for my body to rotten and disappear… gone.

Or maybe you’re hurting inside too,
Seeing what I have told you are being known to many others.
You’re filled up with hurt, sadness and even anger,
It seems that begging for forgiveness means nothing to you.

I miss those past days, those happy and joyful days,
Remember it seemed as if we would never stop laughing?
Just remember all of that, gets me to a point where I start crying,
Because now… it seems as all of us have decided to take our ways.

But that’s life, we can’t change the way it is… sadly,
I have grown to understand that and have accepted it.
Something that many still haven’t done… they haven’t understood it,
Hopefully one day they will… just hopefully.

I know that I have stood up and have caused pain,
But please take out your poison for it kills me slowly inside.
I won’t turn my back on you, I’m not a coward, I won’t hide,
I still wish to have our bond… for I cannot live with so much strain.

I don’t look up to you or look down on you,
We are both the same, just different thoughts and opinions in our heads.
But because I stood up…doesn’t that show you something? Haven’t you listened to what I have said?...
To so many…. They start to realize that what I have said is true…

But that is them… and we are we. You are you….
I can’t change that, nor do I dare to do such a thing.
Love and friends now a days seem to be everything…
For me that’s how it is… that is why I wish not to lose you…