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EngagedLooking back at when we first started
We were clueless as to what we were getting into
A life time commitment
Without you my life would have no meaning
You're the air I breathe
The strength that holds me up
And the soul that sets me free
Every moment is a cherished memory
Another to add to our beautiful life
Every kiss a secret with our love
I can't wait for the day I become your wife
As I wake up next to you day by day
I realize how blessed we are
To hold and protect each other every day
Love and adore no matter how far
I love you with all my being
Every time I look at you
The world stands still with beauty
And one day it will never stop when we say "I do"
Only A MemoryAs we walked under the stars
All you could see was the smile on my face
As you held me in your arms
You could feel my heart beat in place
It was the 31st of December
Hours before another year marked our lives
A day I'll always remember
I can't believe I let the time fly
I loved every aspect of you
I knew what I felt was real
But I wasn't ready to move forward
I wasn't ready to let you in
It was a mistake to leave things like that
So many things unsaid...
For a long time I was broken
I couldn't live with the guilt, the strain
I didn't know how to just let go
I had caused so much pain
You never knew how much you meant to me
But here I am
With a smile on my face
Knowing you're happy
And knowing my pain didn't leave a trace
MissDo you miss me?
Were our memories something you always wanted to keep?
Have you forgotten me?
Is there no chance that you see?
I’m missing your love,
I hope you’re happy wherever you are.
I can barely sleep,
Tossing and turning in these cold sheets.
I’m reading our notes over and over again,
Obsessed with our past love.
Was it a mistake?
Was I right to end it? To let it break?
I couldn’t let you see,
I couldn’t let you understand.
We weren’t right,
Back then we were tainted.
So much pain,
So many tears.
I’m sorry my dear,
I was hurting deep down too.
I had to let you go,
I had to let you live.
I was still broken,
But now I just beg for you to forgive.
Don’t deny me the chance to make it right,
Please understand now.
I need to mend the broken pieces,
I need to finally let you in.
You Were The OneYou were the one to see through my lies and only want the truth
You wondered what was really happening behind the shield of my face
You heard the faint cries of my thoughts
You were the one to see through my lies and only want the truth
You pretend as if you were okay when my lies were a hit you couldn’t take
You felt a cold knife slowly penetrate your heart as another lie flowed from my lips
You touched your chest to make sure it was still there
You worry when you see my eyes like a pond but my lips still give out venom
You cried when I didn’t understand how much it hurt you to see me like this
You were the one to see through my lies and only want the truth
You understand I try to help but my poison just kills you slowly
You say you dream one day I won’t need my shield to talk
You try to make me see but you can’t move my blinds
You hope I know you’re not going to live with my lies for much longer
You were the one to see through my lies and only want the t
We're ConnectedI’m not ready to go home
Out with a drink in my hand
Looking at the big full moon
Hoping one day you’ll understand
I miss you
As much as I hold myself back
That’s how I feel
I love you
I’ve held you under my wing so many years
I’ve protected you from so much pain
But now I can’t protect you from yourself
As you intoxicate everything… I’m going insane
You’re not a child anymore
I’m not your angel
Someone above is watching
They’ll keep you safe for now
I can’t wipe away your tears
I can’t hold you in my arms
You’re so far away
I wish you no harm
Just remember I’m here
I’m always a call away
Hoping one day you will…
So I can hear your voice again.
I miss you
Don’t let time consume you
Remember we’re connected
I love you
Scarred MemoryI try so hard to not give in
To tear myself from missing you
You deserved much better than me
After the monster you started to see
I really miss your unique taste
The way your skin felt on mine
Those years weren't a waste
No... we were so entwined
I remember being beside you
Looking up at your beautiful face
I can't forget you
You're a scarred memory
I just wish you thought of me
Maybe just crossed your mind
I can't stop dreaming of you
Wish I would of never said it was over
Here I Go...Here I go writing out my pain again,
Letting the words just slip away
I've Grown tired of the constant ache
That keeps me company every day
I have no soul to confide in
Only the pages of my books
I write down my stories
And hope down the cliff I'll never look
It's been far too long since I've written down my pain
Since I've kept it inside and away from all of this
But there comes a time when you just want to scream
And cry to the heavens why have they done this
So I sit here once again
Listening to sweet sounds of life
Hoping this is not the end
For I've been fighting all my life
Happy Without HimShe walks happily down the road
Hair tied back with a smile on her face
He thought she would be stuck on him
Little did he know what she was up to
This was her chance
Her colors shined brighter than ever
And the taste of life couldn't be sweeter
Fire, Ashes, RebornI see you
Crumbled to the ground...
In pieces you seem
After what you've done.
I can't save you,
Not this time.
It hurts me,
Oh it hurts me.
Part of my world has fallen,
I have no idea what to say...
My body trembles
As I hear her cries play...
You did the unimaginable,
Tore hearts apart.
But I know we all make mistakes...
It just hurts to know it happened this way.
This isn't the end,
Only the beginning of something new.
As we wipe away our tears
We grow stronger and now we see.
Don't fall in the abyss...
Don't believe it's over.
Just moving forward,
But never forget that pain in life is never sober.
ViolinI remember the day
you told me violins
were strung with cat gut
and that is why
you hated music
(who says that to a child?)
I followed you
all that summer.
I watched you
grow away from mother -
your whiskey held better conversations
and all she did was cry.
We'd sit cross-legged on the porch
and count the horseflies
settling on our lunch.
You would drown tadpoles
in a bucket
surprised they could not swim
and I would dream
of cherry popsicles.
And when night would gather
on the sidewalk
I'd hold my breath
until a star appeared.
Don't bother making wishes
you'd tell me -
stars are dead weight in heaven
and God has cloth ears.
My School Says I'm Worthless (sort of a rant)I'm a criminal because my values aren't their values
And I'm scum to say the least
Because I'm not on their list
Ones who have their lives set out
And drink from molten glory raining down from
School top balconies...
And I have myself left to blame for all the non-attempts
And truancies; the bleak distractions
That help me escape the inviolable test-score stares
Of disapproval that I attract from their
And they're forced to ask me 'Why?
Why are you still here?'
And I can barely say
That I'm afraid to leave.
That I know that no-one knows
Or what they want to be
But unlike those
I gave up
A while ago
And they can't tell me to my face that I'm a failure so they heavily imply
That my lacking presence
And even less impressive
Tendency for slacking off is evidence
That I am stupid and a fool and nothing more than such a waste of resources
And it's a disappointment
That I don't hold their ideals
VesselYour heart is a compass.
Broken, perhaps, but I know
It’s always searching for the North Star.
Which way will your beard point tonight?
DanielYou are vertebrae
reinforced with titanium
that does not make you the lesser -
You’ve got the weight of the world
on one shoulder
sometimes you trip because of it -
you’re still walking
and if things fused wrong
post or anterior
and if things fused out in the interior
your circuits live on
and if your thoughts get circular
or so do your moods
and your mind blanks and you forget -
you’re nervous but strong -
then I’ll remind you.
Because you give me
the backbone required
you’re my Atlas, so I lift my head,
you’re my axis, so I can face the future
because you are vertebrae
reinforced with titanium.
You’re my inner strength.
FallingFailure after failure
A life not worth living
Lost in my misery
Long gone are the good moments
I keep falling
Nothing can save me now
Gone my hopes are
Darkest MoonI celebrate my right to live;
To the dismay of some, perhaps
It should be noted
These words I write, however true
Are only portions of the moon
I’ve decide to shine light upon.
But who am I to preach respect?
Who Am I to preach equality?
An advocate for re-personification
Of the female gender
But exhibits cannibalistic characteristics
Within dark spaces.
I am a shadow
Hidden within an Eggshell, painted pink,
Waiting to hatch.
Is the darkness
The night brought upon us.
Prowling In My HeadThere has been something prowling around in my head,
Preying down on my thoughts.
I try to hide it away from your face,
Hoping that for once from your care I can escape
Yet there is a torturing feeling inside of me,
Feeding on my pain and laughing straight at me
Im stuck on my tracks and unable to move,
I cant think and I can hardly breathe too.
I want it to get out of my head,
Its controlling every part of me Im its slave
Im damned thats how it was meant to be Ill never be saved
I hope for you not to see me this way,
For it gets even harder every passing day.
I hold it in though, and so far Im still holding on,
But fearfully I believe after a few days I might be gone
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