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EngagedLooking back at when we first started
We were clueless as to what we were getting into
A life time commitment
Without you my life would have no meaning
You're the air I breathe
The strength that holds me up
And the soul that sets me free
Every moment is a cherished memory
Another to add to our beautiful life
Every kiss a secret with our love
I can't wait for the day I become your wife
As I wake up next to you day by day
I realize how blessed we are
To hold and protect each other every day
Love and adore no matter how far
I love you with all my being
Every time I look at you
The world stands still with beauty
And one day it will never stop when we say "I do"
Only A MemoryAs we walked under the stars
All you could see was the smile on my face
As you held me in your arms
You could feel my heart beat in place
It was the 31st of December
Hours before another year marked our lives
A day I'll always remember
I can't believe I let the time fly
I loved every aspect of you
I knew what I felt was real
But I wasn't ready to move forward
I wasn't ready to let you in
It was a mistake to leave things like that
So many things unsaid...
For a long time I was broken
I couldn't live with the guilt, the strain
I didn't know how to just let go
I had caused so much pain
You never knew how much you meant to me
But here I am
With a smile on my face
Knowing you're happy
And knowing my pain didn't leave a trace
MissDo you miss me?
Were our memories something you always wanted to keep?
Have you forgotten me?
Is there no chance that you see?
I’m missing your love,
I hope you’re happy wherever you are.
I can barely sleep,
Tossing and turning in these cold sheets.
I’m reading our notes over and over again,
Obsessed with our past love.
Was it a mistake?
Was I right to end it? To let it break?
I couldn’t let you see,
I couldn’t let you understand.
We weren’t right,
Back then we were tainted.
So much pain,
So many tears.
I’m sorry my dear,
I was hurting deep down too.
I had to let you go,
I had to let you live.
I was still broken,
But now I just beg for you to forgive.
Don’t deny me the chance to make it right,
Please understand now.
I need to mend the broken pieces,
I need to finally let you in.
You Were The OneYou were the one to see through my lies and only want the truth
You wondered what was really happening behind the shield of my face
You heard the faint cries of my thoughts
You were the one to see through my lies and only want the truth
You pretend as if you were okay when my lies were a hit you couldn’t take
You felt a cold knife slowly penetrate your heart as another lie flowed from my lips
You touched your chest to make sure it was still there
You worry when you see my eyes like a pond but my lips still give out venom
You cried when I didn’t understand how much it hurt you to see me like this
You were the one to see through my lies and only want the truth
You understand I try to help but my poison just kills you slowly
You say you dream one day I won’t need my shield to talk
You try to make me see but you can’t move my blinds
You hope I know you’re not going to live with my lies for much longer
You were the one to see through my lies and only want the t
We're ConnectedI’m not ready to go home
Out with a drink in my hand
Looking at the big full moon
Hoping one day you’ll understand
I miss you
As much as I hold myself back
That’s how I feel
I love you
I’ve held you under my wing so many years
I’ve protected you from so much pain
But now I can’t protect you from yourself
As you intoxicate everything… I’m going insane
You’re not a child anymore
I’m not your angel
Someone above is watching
They’ll keep you safe for now
I can’t wipe away your tears
I can’t hold you in my arms
You’re so far away
I wish you no harm
Just remember I’m here
I’m always a call away
Hoping one day you will…
So I can hear your voice again.
I miss you
Don’t let time consume you
Remember we’re connected
I love you
Scarred MemoryI try so hard to not give in
To tear myself from missing you
You deserved much better than me
After the monster you started to see
I really miss your unique taste
The way your skin felt on mine
Those years weren't a waste
No... we were so entwined
I remember being beside you
Looking up at your beautiful face
I can't forget you
You're a scarred memory
I just wish you thought of me
Maybe just crossed your mind
I can't stop dreaming of you
Wish I would of never said it was over
Here I Go...Here I go writing out my pain again,
Letting the words just slip away
I've Grown tired of the constant ache
That keeps me company every day
I have no soul to confide in
Only the pages of my books
I write down my stories
And hope down the cliff I'll never look
It's been far too long since I've written down my pain
Since I've kept it inside and away from all of this
But there comes a time when you just want to scream
And cry to the heavens why have they done this
So I sit here once again
Listening to sweet sounds of life
Hoping this is not the end
For I've been fighting all my life
Happy Without HimShe walks happily down the road
Hair tied back with a smile on her face
He thought she would be stuck on him
Little did he know what she was up to
This was her chance
Her colors shined brighter than ever
And the taste of life couldn't be sweeter
Fire, Ashes, RebornI see you
Crumbled to the ground...
In pieces you seem
After what you've done.
I can't save you,
Not this time.
It hurts me,
Oh it hurts me.
Part of my world has fallen,
I have no idea what to say...
My body trembles
As I hear her cries play...
You did the unimaginable,
Tore hearts apart.
But I know we all make mistakes...
It just hurts to know it happened this way.
This isn't the end,
Only the beginning of something new.
As we wipe away our tears
We grow stronger and now we see.
Don't fall in the abyss...
Don't believe it's over.
Just moving forward,
But never forget that pain in life is never sober.
this is a warning.i.
The first thing you need
to know about people is this:
If you cut off our head,
we will grow two in its place.
We will divide and conquer
until there's nothing left
but tiny gaping mouths,
clacking and salivating
at the crumbs of an empire.
They tell me hurt is like
a paper cut:
quick and forgotten,
Hurt is the first step
off a balcony,
the first gasp
in a chain reaction
screaming from the railing
to beyond the pavement.
When I finally hit the ground,
I looked up and saw my halo
dangling from the edge,
He said, she said,
I wanted, he lost, she won,
I ruined this, I broke your heart,
he left me,
I miss you.
This is nothing new.
Your tragedy is always
what's it like to realize
every slash on your soul
has an identical twin?
What's it like to know
you're going to die
the same way everyone does:
scared and alone?
We are disposable.
The hydra g
Peter Pan EnvyWe molded pirate ships
from heavy storm clouds,
flags puffed up
and scooped out
like handfuls of sand
while the car windows
steamed in the cold.
You told me stories
of a boy in green
and his war with
the hooked man,
said they took
those like us
to the first star on the right
and straight on to morning.
You made me believe
and when life got hard--
mom hopped up on pills,
nights filled with demons--
I breathed wishes
to be stolen away.
No pirate ever darkened my stoop
with his wayward compass
or water-stained maps;
no fairy ever left glitter
smeared on my skin
like good dreams.
I look to the sky
when the wind blows
and hold my breath
with his name on my tongue
all the same.
SeptemberThe summer was so hot
the dogs stuck to the sidewalks
with the newspapers
and the black metal cans
everyone left waiting on the curb.
You could smell it
in the glass pitchers
on table tops,
and the sheets that never
dried on the clothes lines;
the canvas beach bags
mothers dragged wearily
across the sand
and the ice cream trucks
melting across the highways.
Children felt it open
up the windows at night
and find a corner
of the bed to smother,
while fathers baited it on hooks
or mowed it down
in flat, dry stripes
as if begging each other
And the crickets just hummed
beneath the corn silk
and the dry mouth
daring the cats to play
hide and seek -
searching for September.
War and CancerI want to go back
and meet us one more time,
before the war and the cancer
took up so much of the day -
before my father could no longer
remember what the present
was supposed to mean
and your mother
could still get dressed
without losing her way.
I want to know
what it felt like
to board a plane
to somewhere hidden
and not care
if our names and faces
to walk as long
as we wanted
without the sun and moon
creating an argument.
I want to feel you
roll into my arms
where I forgot to cut the grass
and you did not
water the flowers;
to hear you
watching the cardinals
unearth the spring.
And to know once again
how this place
started becoming new.
The Re-Prettify ProjectBreathing in silver filaments
will not make you pretty on the inside.
You cannot polish and buff
lung or aorta
until it is shiny and new.
If you have filled your life with toxins
and allowed your eyes
to cloud over with coal dust
do not, my friend, do not
seek silver linings from anything
but penance and kindness.
Throwing gold-dust over your head
will not administer you a halo.
thirstYou tell me to breathe in
the scent of my tea:
Apple Cinnamon Spice,
it is crisp and infusing
the aroma into my lips.
Honey coasts along my spoon,
apple biting into its
golden flavor. Cinnamon bursts
forth for a brief moment and I am
Note to SelfDate a librarian; they'll read you until your spine falls apart, and still love every page. They'll underline your highlights, your endless seas of profound poetry, as if they've mistaken your manatee appearance for a mermaid. They'll hang off the cliff of your chapter 15 and dive into the next page as if you're about to reveal what they've been looking for. And when they don't find it, they'll tear out your words letter by letter with a hush, asking you oh so sweetly to stay quiet. Finally, they'll bind your broken spine with tape and set you on the shelf for misplaced books until they forget you were ever there, but they won't be done with you. They'll never be done with you; even when it seems your pages, your rib cage and heart, is filled with nothing but dust.
Prowling In My HeadThere has been something prowling around in my head,
Preying down on my thoughts.
I try to hide it away from your face,
Hoping that for once from your care I can escape
Yet there is a torturing feeling inside of me,
Feeding on my pain and laughing straight at me
Im stuck on my tracks and unable to move,
I cant think and I can hardly breathe too.
I want it to get out of my head,
Its controlling every part of me Im its slave
Im damned thats how it was meant to be Ill never be saved
I hope for you not to see me this way,
For it gets even harder every passing day.
I hold it in though, and so far Im still holding on,
But fearfully I believe after a few days I might be gone
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