Unbearable Hurt

Why did I believe everything was going to be ok?
You were trying to push me away…
Thinking that it would make things easier for me…
I told you it wouldn’t… I told you it would only hurt me…
But my words weren’t enough for you…
Even after everything I’ve gone through…
I needed you to be there…
But it only seemed as if you didn’t care…
Your words hurt… it felt like you stabbed my heart and threw it away…
Like if this was something that you did everyday…
I guess things don’t happen the way we plan them to… do they ever?
I can’t believe you… you even called me a cheater..
A liar… do you know how much that hurt?...
You made me feel… like dirt…
I had a wish to die…
All I did was think of everything you said and I would cry…
Why did everything around me seem to go dark?...
Not even a little spark…
Darkness was the only thing there…
I didn’t deserve it.. it wasn’t fair…